Monday, January 31, 2011

When I look back upon my life...

Sometimes I take a look at where I am in life, and can't believe that TGIF is a joy and NSFW is a concern. I could have turned out to be someone else. I'm pleased with where I've wound up, don't get me wrong, it's just not everything I could have become. How did I end up here?

Regret is an awful, awful word and a worse feeling. Corporate lifestyle aside, I have made horrible mistakes along the way and I live in a paradoxical world of being PERFECTLY FINE WITH WHO I AM yet being ISOLATED AND TORMENTED.

I'm just in a wierd(er) state lately.

I have been summoned by my former place of employment, The World Church of Assimilation, to do some of their dirty work on a freelance, twice a year basis. This, like my life, is a grand opportunity and a immense burden.

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Happy New Year!

Closed the year out with embarrassment, pride, shame, success, love, inspiration, horror ... the usual mixture of my life's work. I have such big ambitions for this new year and I am going to work hard to keep the momentum going that I'm feeling now (of course I'm only 12 hours in so far).

I feel like 2011 might be my year. I'm gonna do something.